alot things had been happen lately...
there is lost and there is gain...sometimes i dont even know whether it is really a good things
or just sumhow situations are just toying with me..

ppl that is dearest to me ...who that is soo close that i could talk and show my whole heart to care had become a rather strangers to me...
well..i guess thats life right...nothing could ever be the way that you exactly wanted it..
there is alot ppl who actually gave up alot things...nomatter efforts, money or our own heart
but most of the times...we get nothing out of it.
but for those who would get the repayed by what they actually gaved out..is indeed really blessed and i really hope that they would be grateful for it..no matter how small the outcome that they receive...

im letting go alot of things know...im just too tired to keep bearing the burden on top of my own shoulder...
keeping to care soo much bout how they would think bout me...
staying in church for too long ...had somehow had forgotten how human basic nature would act...
i was once really familiar with it..b4 i was actually a christian...
well i guess thats humans weaknesses that everyone has...for being stupid or blinded by lies ,there is noone that u could actually blame rather than ur ownself trusting it.

there is noone that really rely rather than God and ownself, i got a homework to do now.
a really simple task but yet really hard for me to do it..and im sure alot ppl out there is having the same difficulty like me.
and that is relying on god in everyway that i could,i was once a boy who would took all the problem unto myself...wont tell anybody bout it, but once that i had someone i could talk with..well i guess not anymore.
there just me and god now,for he had already taken back from me soo that i could realise that this all just human desire..nothing true come out of it.
From nothing into something,and from something into nothing back.
Still im still really grateful for everything that i had now or in the past, for everything that he said or done,he did it because he loves u.

went for movies last night....
with jacky ...samuel can't go last night...
soo its me and jacky only lol....kinda lame huh...
its been quite awhile since the last time went movies with friends...
we see two movies last nite...hahaha...terminator and night at museum 2...
well...terminator wasn't wad i expected thought....nothing really surprise me..
all those terminator is already seen it on the trailers....duh...well except the last ones...which is armold
lol...finally appeared at the end...soo overall the movie is consider ok...
night at musuem is rather funny movie...abit more better den terminator...cos atleast u can see some humorous act on there....and u can laugh abit...after the movie we went for a place to sit down and grab a drink...
on da way...we meet up with amanda...she was shopping with her mum..we get the chance to chat a little..but den she wanted to buy bag ...soo our conversation just lasted bout 5 mins only.
soo finally we decided to go Kim Gary for a drink...and i manage to grab my dinner on there too...den later jacky told me that he got a friends working on mv...soo later on he's gonna meet with with his friends and grab a bite..soo ok lo..i've decided to follow also...we went to sushi king..while eating we chat alot..and they asked my ages...(here comes my favourite part)soo usual i asked them guess....hehehe...when i told them my ages...they were like shocked u noe...those face expressions is simply priceless for me...ahahhaa :P well didnt happen alot things la..just simply like dat...oh ya...tell u one thing...i won't ever ever take ktm to mv during school holidays again...man...really sesak like shit..imagine kena cramp inside the train for half an hours..and inside the freaking train got all kind of "fragrance"...sweat la,cheap perfume la,ciggarette smells la,branded but smells terrible perfume la...walao all mix up in a stupid train...wad comes up with that??a smells that'll makes u vomit and dizzy...i won't EVER take ktm train to mv again...

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hehehee~~im back again~!
alot ppl been asking why didn't i update my blog...its been soo long since the last time i've actually write something on my bloggie.
well...to tell u guys the truth...i didn't know wad to write on my bloggie..or u could say that im lazy...hehe..
alot things have been happen while i was absent on bloggie..but was kinda lazy to write all about it....cos its gonna be soooooooooooo long story...and i was lazy to write bout it..:P ahahaha...
The most latest news bout me is getting ready of dancing perfomance on A4j...gosh...i feel kinda nervous now..i will be perfomancing infront of few thousand ppl...well...i do hope that i could perform well infront of audience and most importantly infront of Him...
oh ya...a little update on my studies...its been a little hard for me to catch up back on college now...since my result on spm really sucks...i didnt even got a single credit on my spm cert...alot college requested me to retake my spm and atleast get 3 credit...which i feel like kinda unessary for me..i just don't wanted to retake my spm though...soo i left with only few choices..1st retake the spm..2nd continue on working instead of studying...3rd give up on the academic cert and aim for skill cert like car mechanics or barber etc....soo i still haven't make the decisions yet...soo what u guys think?any opinions?
ok lah...thats all for now ...will update my blog more frequently as i can...hehehe ciaoz~!

hmm...wad a packed month that i have...drama,carolling and also dancing~!
hahaha...i've never believe that im actually learning dancing...im still trying my best to learning and practising it...
although the showing night....is right before christmas,and its getting near.i've been really focusing on this things..especially on dancing cos the date is getting near..and i have to be really good ,well atleast i have to dance soo well like the others..focusing too much on this things,makes me loose focus on works too.always forget my shift timeing,and worst of all i dont even feeling wanted to work in there anymore.i guess its good also,soo i can quit my job more easier without any regret or other feelings that will keep me back from quitting the job.really thanks phoebe for willing to be my dancing teacher...really saw that she putting her effort on teaching me,eventhou im quite stupid and slow learner.but really thanks alot to her,i will practise hard in order to repay her.Speaking of drama,haha..im acting as the main character of the drama's cousin...and also head of the gangster..although my acting was just a few mins..but the face expressions and emotion have to be real...cos this drama we doesnt need to speak any dialog.soo i think this is kinda fun too.And last of all would be Carolling,hehehe that means singing loh...sing in a group is really interesting..we have our owns pitch and tones to sing,divide by 5 groups...but if we just sing in our own tones and pitch its sounds kinda weirds...but when combine together it can be a really nice and lovely songs...although sometimes i found that its kinda hard lo,cos we will be mistaken and sing others groups pitch...everything that i've joined is something that i've never do before...and i think its really great cos i could actually do wad i've been wanted to do since kid.although im getting busy in church...but atleast im happy bout all the things that im doing.And finally got the chances to serve God,im really happy that i can Give to god but not just to receive.ok la that's all for now...will blog again in other time.

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1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be? take revenge?
i will be very sad and heart broken,on that time i also have to remind myself why she wanted to betrayed me...as if i did something wrong that causes her to do soo?

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
have outstanding perfomance on my job...and have beautiful wife...hehe =p (now com'on who doesn't want that anyway)

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
err...hmm...noone?

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
10% for god...buy nice car...a nice apartment...and give some to my parents...and rest of it...im saving for my marriage and my child's educations need.

5. Will you u fall in love with your best friend?
every relationship starts from normal friends to best friends and lastly to couple...soo wadya think?

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
for me is being loved lo...althought i never had being loved before except my family and cousins...haha

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
hmm...as long as she needs....will always be there for her

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
hahaha....sumhow it reminds me of the situations....erm..if she really likes the persons and the persons likes her also...i will wish for them.

9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? your gf/bf or an actress/actor?
depends on wad the act is lo...if romance sure i will prefer my gf more lar...if other actress scared she will jealous a...

10. Will you invite for Ex bf/gf to your wedding dinner?
will had to ask my bride opinion first...if she is ok with it...den im cool

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
haved a good career,a wife...or probably in outer countries?(who knows...)

12. What’s your fear?
dissapoint ppl who put hope on me...especially those who are very close to me.

13. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
money is important...but ur another half is ur soul mates...who will shares ur joy and sad things...those are the most important thing for me.

15. Would you give all in a relationship?
yeah...i would...but i don't really know its a good thing or a bad thing.(humph)

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
i never bumps into this kind of situations before....whenever i loved ones...i won't fall in love anothers.

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
as long as the "thing" doesn't hurt anyone...i guess i can forgive her.

18.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
despite on all thos asnwer previously...doesn't it obvious?

tags:
1. daniel
2.kenneth
3.joshua

thats all la i guess....

many things had been passed...
i don't even know whether is good or bad..
well...one thing is good was about to come though...
that is my birthday...im still gathering some money for my birthday...
i got a habit for myself...during my birthday...i will spend ppl whom i invite to eat something nice...which mostly i invite is my cousins...
they all said that i shouldn't waste my money like that...which i don't really agree of it
i don't feel sad if i spend all the money on my birthday...cos i think its worth it
if money spend...still can earn it back...
wad i wanted the most is...all of them is having fun that day
i want my birthday to be day that our cousins can gather together...have fun together..and could pull the relationship more closer....
a day that when we mention of it...we will remember all the good and fun things that we used to did on my past birthdays...
soo seriously....i don't care bout how much money i spend on that day...because its really worth it
a good memory on it...its simply priceless to me.

days have been passed...and i still haven't find the fund for my educations yet..
actually i was kinda afraid of it....its been soo long since the last time i have really studied...
im not sure that i could really handle all the stress that is about to come...
i was afraid that everything was happen too fast...
still remember one of my cousins says that....God's work is really fast...whether u like it or not...u are apart of it...and there is not turning back.
i really do understand this words...but sometimes its kinda hard to accept it
i was afraid that...i will dissapoint everyone that had put hope on me
And i know the feeling of dissapointed ppl...its really bad..i really hate it...cos past of my life..
all i do...is dissapoint ppl around me..and i really dont want this to happen anymore.
all i can really do is....do with all my best on it...soo i won't have any regreat on it.
One of my cousins still said that...In future what ever difficulties or stress that u might be facing..
just remember that all this things...is making u to be a more better and improvised person..
and always Thank God for it...
this word's reminds me of a phrase...What Ever He Do,He Do It Because He Loves Me
And my cousins also prophecied one thing to me...is that in future...i will be a great leader...
which i don't really have the confident to be one...but i really do hope that i could be a great leader in future...but anyways...i'll put all this on the hand's of God...let him plan for my future..and my destiny...all i can do is that...be myself and what ever i do ...i will give all my best on it.And thanks phoebe...ur advice had really touches my heart..and i will always remember it.

Alot things has happen recently...some is good but some is bad...many things do happen for a reason..its depends on how u sees it.lately alot things goes through my mind...i've ever wondered that i should further my studies to colleges...as i know its been like 5 years since that i've graduate from secondary high and wasn't soo sure if i've still got the urge and will to study anymore...many of my friends said that should atleast get a cert for more guarantee on my future...but then im not really a study material.soo most probably gonna decide to work....and learn at the same time,hopefully i won't be regreat for the decision that i had made.Talking bout my work...im currently working at cyber cafe,as a cashier...its was quite an easy job actually..and plus i can online during working time~!haha...its was a fun job at first but by then the more longer i've work...the more that i've realise that im actually wasting my time in here.working in cyber cafe doesn't have any future at all.What i've want now is a job that is more chalenging and alot things that i can actually learn and a better future for it,been wasted soo many years and stuck myself in cc,living in a virtual world thats is never true and evading whats is out there.Soo its time for me to wake up and take the step outside the door and deal with it and i know that God is always theres to help me and i won't scare of it.
The hillsongs concert that held in GLad Tidings church is really great...the songs that they played is really great and anointed.And we get to worship and praise god together from other churches ppl....and its really great,i know its touches alot young christians teenages heart and will crazy and hunger for god even more and its was same for me too,it was a good expirence for me.
Another good expirence was the A4j conference,and i've learn alot of things during the conference.And yet its was very tireling cos we had to serve lunch and dinner to other fellow churchmates,imagine serving lunch for over one thousand ppl its not an easy job but yet we did our best for it.it was a very good task for us,cos it could test our teamwork,communications with each others.Really happy to see all the teenagers from other church can gather and learn and summore praise worship God together,and i know malaysia time has come ..for us to raise jesus christ name up in here.Let them know that how real is our god,and how love and mercyful of our god..let us spread the gospel to whole fellow malaysians~!